I thrived on it for decades. And until quite recently, participated in it like there was a prize at the end. Fit has finally hit the shan (where did I get that from, my bank telling days?) and I’m sick of starring in this movie. Thanks to the work I’ve started doing in this imperfect little bout with clarity, I’m finding out what I will and will not allow in my life anymore. It’s kind of quiet, realizing all this, and not feeding it to myself and others, but I think that’s what peace is all about.
Because of my extensive history, for some to look at me, I’ll just be like one of those stars that can only be seen for one piece of work. No matter how many roles they subsequently play differently and/or better, they’ll always be known for their time on a sitcom or for what they did in a John Hughes film in the mid-to-late 80s. Oh, whoops, did I just compare myself to a member of the Brat Pack? While I’m sorry to see some people go and have a few things I wish I would have said or done differently, they’re still in the credits.
I’m holier than nobody, I’m simply finding peace.